And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19
I haven’t written in a while. It’s not because I don’t have anything to say, it’s more because I am an “emotional” writer, and I need to be write it when I “feel” it. Once the mood passes, it’s hard for me to get it back. Lately, I’ve been to more doctor appointments than I can count, or pay for, and that takes away my quiet time at the computer.
My husband has an open wound that we’ve been treating for over two months now. He had a total of three “bugs”, including MRSA, found via culture, and we were emotionally prepared to lose part of his foot. After lots of prayer, we are finally on the upswing, and the foot is intact, praise God! In the last couple of months, our days have been filled with specialists and wound care and days of pain as he worked to just cope. Some medications helped to releive the pain, but keep him too drowsy to function. We’ve filled prescriptions just to be told to discontinue them and fill others, and he’s missed a lot of work-more than one full week. We’ve seen microscopic paychecks, and I’ve cried out to God in ways new to me.
I’ve always felt like the trials we go through (my husband and I specifically) are to teach me to depend on God. I am always trying to make a plan, or work things out, even though I can quickly recite verses that promise our needs will be met. I have head knowledge, and I have heart knowledge, but I want to FIX it. (Don’t misunderstand me….I believe that we all are to do our part to become the answer to our prayers.)
With several full weeks off work, we’ve had our share of financial challenges, but I can tell you that ALL of our needs have been met. We’ve had friends give us cash for Christmas,knowing that we weren’t able to buy gifts. We’ve had paychecks come early, in case there was a need. We’ve had people just give us several hundred dollars for bills, and we’ve received cash inside Christmas cards. We’ve found great sales on groceries and household needs, like laundry soap. But there was one particular week…things weren’t good. We were beginning to run out of staples and I had to make an emergency trip to the food pantry we help with just to get our family by.
That Sunday evening, we heard from a special speaker at church, who’s message was life-changing for me. As I sat in the back of the chapel, the service ended, and our friend Rhonda came to me, and handed me three small packages of coffee. One was pumpkin; she knows how much I love pumpkin everything. The other two were a holiday blend, another favorite of mine from the coffee company the church uses. These were packets that were left after the holidays, and they didn’t plan to use them. Rhonda is always sweet to think of others, and she knows our situation. She knew we would appreciate the coffee.
What she couldn’t have known is that we were completely out of coffee at home, and that we were out of money too. We were looking at a week, at least, of no coffee. Honestly, I wasn’t sure we could survive. It’s our vice, our one addiction. It’s where we find comfort, and is always present when we make memories. Being without was also a constant reminder of our situation, which can be emotionally overwhelming. Almost as soon as she put the coffee in front of me, a thought popped in my head.
I’ve got this. I’ve got it all, even the coffee.
God’s got this, even the coffee!! God knows, and He takes care of us, clear down to the coffee. It’s not really a need, but God knows our desires, and our needs, and He loves us.
That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? Matthew 6:25-26
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Philippians 4:6
God’s in the details, and He’s got. Maybe for you, it’s not coffee. Once, for me, it was toilet paper. It’s been money on more than once occasion.
Thank you, Lord, for your provision, and for those that are sensitive and obedient to your Holy Spirit. Bless them abundantly, as you have blessed us. Amen